| A little less conversation |
[Jul. 21st, 2008 | 12:58 am] |
I've had two interesting conversations today. Two people whom I've never spoken to in a very long time. We all used to have wonderful conversations that often last through the early hours of the morning.
It's wit. It's humour. It's the little innuendoes you get. It's these little things that get your mind racing and your blood rushing. I don't get this with just anybody. I think some of you should know that. Sure there's physical attraction and other sort of requisites to get two people to be drawn towards each other- romantic or otherwise. (There are a good amount of men and women who make good conversationalist with me) Great conversations always hit me hard- sorta like the moment in Jerry Maguire, "you had me at hello". Okay, maybe that wasn't quite a good example as there's basically no conversation in there whatsoever. But you get my point. There's just a click. There's no manual to learn, or even watching all the videos of "the game" or "hitch". If it's there, it's there.
Finding such people- in school, hell, even in this country, is hard. Bex can attest to that. Sure there are people I can talk to, and can talk to me. But there are so few and far between who can pick up a conversation like things haven't changed and still remain entertaining. No forced conversations, no awkward silences. Conversations where I can let out all sides of me- I am never just one "boxed" category of a person.
Be it as it may, that lately, everyone's taken me to be for a blonde- which I've perpetuated through my own words and actions I suppose. But it's hard to find people whom I can let out my sarcasm to (with some care and not offend), my personal feelings about the world and my place within society be knownor even to find someone who doesn't intimidate me but rather, makes me strive to be better and voice my opinions. Usually, some well spoken people (esp in class) leave me intimidated. Few people manage to balance the well spoken capabilities with a welcoming aura. One of tonight's conversations reminded me of that- reminded me of a part of myself that I guess, hasn't had the opportunity to come out lately.
It's good to know that I still have have some semblance of my past self left.-that I haven't quite changed entirely, not grown up out of certain things. (Hah. I knew some people thought my smart mouth was just a stupid phase back in secondary school!)
What saddens me, I guess, is that with one of the two whom I talked to- things have changed so much that conversations are a complete waste of time. Formalities and politeness make for a boring and dull conversation to me. The other, I didn't quite expect to be able to slip back so easily into conversation, like old times- before things got so muddled between us. Bad memories aside, I can't deny that I'm still drawn to the way we talk. Maybe because, I haven't quite found more like-minded people Then again, I don't think there's anyone who's as big an ass as him. That aside, we agreed, I guess, that it seems that we're reminded of ourselves- as individuals- mostly when we talk to each other. Not merely part of a family, clique or better half. Just us as individuals, living our lives.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not getting smitten all over again. It's just interesting how one conversation managed to finally get me to blog again. And no, ladies and gentlemen, I'm not playing with fire this time round. |
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| Be together |
[Jul. 20th, 2008 | 07:31 pm] |
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| I dont give a hoot about what you think! |
[Jul. 20th, 2008 | 11:51 pm] |
HEY-HEY!
play along now! |
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| black, white and grey |
[Jul. 20th, 2008 | 11:45 am] |
I've been playing around with making some of my pictures black and white. I'm still not sure whether I like the color or b/w versions better in most cases, though there are definitely a few when that black and white moodiness works very well.
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Callanish standing stones, Isle of Lewis, Scotland |
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